don’t plan for real
You used to know everything you want. But everything turned against what you planned so you decided to change everything – everything you want, you hate, you don’t care about. What was planned remained a plan – something tentative and unimportant.
You try to cheer yourself up. You’d succeed only for a fleeting moment, and then you’ll fall back to reality – to everything you wish you could escape.
You’re stressed. You know it. But what can you do about it? You’ll be stuck in there if you don’t do anything. So go plan another plan, even if it too would remain a plan.