shut up and swallow your pride

“just swallow it” my mind said. but i can’t seem to do that. it’s not that easy. i did my part. i tried to fix it. but he doesn’t care. so screw it. i’m not gonna chase him forever. if he doesn’t want my apology then fine. it’s both our loss. but at least i know i lost something cause i tried.

“tried.. but not hard enough” my mind interrupted my thoughts again. and i argue. i argue with my own mind. i tried. he didn’t. that’s enough. i’m not gonna make myself look so desperate begging for his forgiveness. i did my part and i’m fine with it. he should meet me halfway.

my mind, once again, was not satisfied. “someone’s gotta take an extra step, sometimes” my mind said. and i don’t really care. why can’t he take that extra step? why can’t he meet me here? all i ask is for him to meet me halfway. compromise. but if he doesn’t want then whatever. i don’t care. seriously. i don’t care.

“STUPID STUPID GIRL! we both know you care. we both know you’re bothered. we both know you don’t wanna lose him. so shut up. and swallow your fucking pride, you moron! if you don’t you’ll end up losing him. so just deal with it and take that extra fucking step.” my mind finally lost it.

and so did i.

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